unintentional but this is what I feel

I'm totally hurt today. This is the day where I died again. I don't know how to be fine anymore. I'm only trying to be happy but now it all went down. I really don't know if I'll be able to live. I'm really happy before. I try to laugh as hard as I can. I try to smile even i my tears want to flow. I'm dying. Dying in terms of losing myself. And I think I can't be revived. I'm really losing myself and it's no one's fault. I'm not happy anymore with my life. The people I knew don't know me anymore because I'm totally different. -_-

I used to know myself much better. -_-